Thursday, February 27th, 2014
Today is a throwback to my 21st birthday where I got to feed giraffes on a “safari” through Busch Gardens. It is hands down the coolest thing I’ve ever done. I don’t think anybody shows more restraint than when they feed their favorite wild animal and DON’T attempt to take it home with them. I wish there hadn’t been anyone else on the safari with us so we could have fed the giraffes for as long as possible!
Monday, February 10th, 2014
Ever since I moved to Florida I have been learning all about long distance friendships. I’m used to the long distance relationships with date night Skype dates and cutsey love posts on social media to let your significant other know you’re thinking about them, but this is my first real struggle to learn the ins and outs of keeping up strong friendships despite the distance. I heard that quote “when things get tough you learn who your real friends are” constantly growing up but I never thought I would be the one saying that eventually. Because being down here in Florida really has taught me who my “real friends” are. The people who text me from time to time asking how I’m doing, send me loving Snapchats with capital letter messages of “I MISS YOU!” or “I WISH YOU WERE HERE”, the Facebook messages asking when I’m coming home to visit next… It may sound like stupid things but to someone who goes from living in a place surrounded by these people daily to all of a sudden living in a place with nobody you know, these things mean a lot. Yes, life does go on, and people do continue their lives without you. Of course I don’t expect the whole world to pause in Maryland because I am gone. Of course I don’t expect to hear from people daily. The whole dynamic of my friendships had to change and we are learning how to adapt to this long distance.
I guess over all I’m just surprised as to who has been keeping in touch with me and who hasn’t. People who I would never go more than 24 hours without talking to have disappeared and people who I hung out with sparingly but still considered friends surprise me with their messages. I am thankful for these people because they have been helping me heal, so to speak, from the end of deep friendships that I thought would last the distance.
And you may be wanting to tell me “don’t forget friendship goes both ways”. Yes I do understand that. Don’t think I haven’t tried. Sending texts with “hope you’re having a great day! love you <3”, “Good luck with school this week, you’re a fantastic person”, or Facebook posts with cute pictures or links to fun websites also with a “This makes me miss you more! Can’t wait to see you whenever I come home” get old after awhile when they don’t get answered or just get a quick “like” and then are passed over. I think what hurts the most is when you can see (from all of today’s social media) that not only are you being ignored but you are also being slowly replaced.
I guess today I just needed to vent one of the small struggles of being a military wife and being far away from home.
Thursday, January 16th, 2014
The first time I heard this song was last spring while I was finishing up my last semester in college. I was preparing myself for all the excitement of Summer 2013 and for moving far away from all my family and friends when I heard it, and it really hit home. Because I could feel for the girl in the song, wanting the time to go faster so she could be married and so she could have a bigger house and kids, but at the same time (which is what made me cry) I could really feel for the person telling the girl to slow down and that while she’s very excited to move ahead to the next life goal, she will in fact miss this time. I spent half of my time wishing Andrew could come back home from Florida and I spent the other half wishing I could jump ahead to July when I got to finally move out of Maryland.
But right now, in this moment, although I love my husband dearly and I’m treasuring this time alone with him in Florida, I would give anything to make that time when I was just a silly college sorority girl come back and slow down. One more car ride with my sisters, one more fraternity party, one more spontaneous dance party with my roommates, one more work day where I got to spend the day playing with my preschool babies. Because now, on the other side of it all, you’re supposed to be a grown up, and let’s all be serious here. Growing up and being an adult sucks.
I’m lucky I get to go home to MD this weekend. I’m lucky I get to spend the time with my parents, fooling around with the little girls I used to nanny, seeing everyone in the town where I grew up. And you better believe I’m going to take advantage of every moment. The 32 degree coldness, the giggles, the hugs and cuddles, the car rides, the music that will be shared, everything. Because after this weekend I won’t be able to come back until March, so I’m going to savor every minute. This weekend is the perfect time to live in the moment 🙂
Tuesday, January 14th, 2014
**Or husband in this case.
A few years ago when this song came out (wow this came out in 2011?) my husband (he was my fiancé back then) put this on my Facebook page and we had a dance party over Skype together while we listened to it. I was living in Maryland and he was already stationed in Florida so it was nice to have this little moment together over Skype. This song always reminds me of that time, dancing in my dorm room at school, while he was in his tiny room on base very far away.